What if you knew that you only had one more day with someone that you love. Would it make you look at things any differently. How do you know that today isn't the last day? I am writing this blog, after I got the distinct impression (multiple times in the last year) that I was going to lose part of my family members in an accident. I know it sounds crazy and maybe it is, but what has happened to my heart as a result of this feeling, is not crazy-it is AMAZING. For the first time I am looking at things as if they could be my last and that makes me soak them in, and appreciate them more than ever before. What if today really was the last day? I don't know if it will be or not, but I also don't want to take any chances.

Thursday, May 15, 2014

My perfect day

  Today was nearly perfect (as perfect as life with 3 little kids, a migraine and a church assignment can be).  What I loved about it was that I was up early and did my workout and showered before anyone woke up, I was organized, I used time really well, I planned ahead for dinner, and surprisingly the house stayed pretty clean.  But what I loved even more than all of those things was that today allowed me to have one on one time with each of my kids which rarely happens; hardly ever actually.  Allie was the only one of the 3 up before school so that gave me time with her to listen to her chit chat about school and what the kids do and friends and lunch and hair and clothes and the way her glasses case reflected the sunlight on the kitchen floor, and how she could make shadow puppets on the floor while she laid in the sun and she asked a million questions about her field trip tomorrow.  Getting her ready for school has not been easy this year but this morning I loved having a little one on one with her-I guess I loved it more than the other few times it has happened because I recognized it as more of a blessing than I ever have before.
  After Allie was off to school I had a little scripture study time (which also helped make it a perfect day) and then Treyson woke up but Brailie stayed asleep.  That gave me a chance to eat breakfast with him and watch him putter around the kitchen.  It gave me a chance to watch him eat more than I have before.  Man the kid loves to eat.  It was fun to just hold him and not feel quite as torn in a million directions getting juice and snacks and shows and stuff like usual.  It was great just to have a little time with my little man.
  In the afternoon while Treyson napped I also got my time with Brailie.  We baked pumpkin chocolate chip cookies and she asked a million questions and had a million comments.  Then we did some preschool together.  We practiced writing sight words and reading them.  We practiced writing numbers (which I think she might be getting up in the night to practice those because she keeps getting better and better every day) and then she read/sounded out to me 28 CVC words (consonant, vowel, consonant words).  28.  All on her own.  Brilliant.  She is so smart.  She was so proud of herself, she didn't want to stop.  She just had the biggest grin from ear to ear.  It was perfect.  Then we painted.  I can't forget that.  We painted in a water color book and she talked a mile a minute.  I just grinned.  I haven't always grinned (I will be honest) while doing these kinds of things but today I grinned.  I tried to listen to what she said and respond and giggle with her.  The thought, "Oh, you don't want to miss this," played over and over in my mind.  And I am so grateful that I was there-not just in body but in mind too.
  When I came home from my church assignment, I was so sick with a migraine I could hardly stand and I went in to say good night to the girls.  Allie had to tell me about all the geese they saw playing golf with daddy today.  I felt like passing out but I listened with as much of a grin as I could muster as I heard about all the geese-the babies, the father goose who was flying one way but pointed his wings the other, the grey geese and the tiny new baby geese and the ducks with crazy white beaks.  I did my best to take it all in.  After all, how many people get to know, in so many details, about the goose population of the golf course.  There might be a quiz on it someday.  I am so glad I listened.  I am so glad I made myself stay and listen.  I am so glad I was part of this day.

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